June Journal notes

June 2012 has been a really different experience for me and I have really enjoyed my daily journal writings, but my Blog site has been neglected.  So I thought that today I would take a few moments to mention the Journal highlights for those who may be interested.  Since this site originated because of my diabetes experiences, I should note that June has not been totally friendly to my blood glucose counts!  I have had many readings of 94, and that is excellent.  There have also been many readings between 105 and 130, which are acceptable.  It is the other counts that have caused my recent "repentance" and promises to be good.  I seem to be more human than previously thought and thus subject to earthly temptations, such as ice cream on a hot day!  Well, we will get this under control and July will be a stellar month (surely!)

Well, back to June.  We have no internet connection at Lisa and Rudy's, and no provision for t.v. reception. I am thinking that this is probably all good for me, but we will see...
     June 3rd: Found my first or second (or whatever) lesson for today in John 18 - Jesus says to "put away (my) sword of bitterness" over the District's actions and leadership and "(fully) drink of the cup the Father has given me." This speaks to me and blesses me.  I am learning and growing so much already from this experience (this turning point), and since God answered my prayer and sang my song back to me.  About church today:  the music is sadly lacking.  Not live, only several recorded hymns hard to sing and unrelated to the message.  The people are friendly (only 30 there).  The liturgy is Methodist so we knew it all.  The next couple weeks services will not be usual times or regular order of things.  Of the 30, 6 were visitors.  No one wore a dress but me.  Pastor's wife was not evident - he does both Edgemont and Pringle so maybe she only attends one. This church is yoked with a UCC church in Edgemont, which gives me pause!
     June 4th: Matthew 25:21 notes that because of faithfulness, we will enter into the joy of the Lord.  So joy is the result of faithfulness and is given by God.  This verse was referenced in John 16 in a wonderful study we did in June of 1996.  I am enjoying the notes of that study as listed in my Bible #5.
     June 5th: Last night's power outages lasted 3 hours or more and took out our water, toilet, lights, clocks, dryer, coffee maker - but it all ended well as we slept.  Lisa re-started the dryer with my clothes in it, made my coffee for the next day, etc.  We awoke to a normal world!  Lisa has a real ability to make do, to make lemonade of lemons and to make it all turn out okay.  I am learning new stuff about her everyday.  In John 19:17, "So they had Him at last..." and I do, too, but in a good way!  John 19:20 the place where He was crucified was "near the city" where I always long to be :)  and the two others crucified had Jesus between them.  If (when) I am crucified, I want Jesus beside me, too...
     June 7th:  John 20 has Jesus asking Mary, "Why are you crying:  Whom are you looking for?"  She answered, "They have taken away my Lord and I don't know where they have put Him."  And later on, "How wonderful was their joy when they saw their Lord!"  This was me after the District's actions in Custer. Several times in the past I have let "them" take away my Lord - but I did not come desperately searching early enough.  I cried and nursed bitterness for far too long before I sought my "song" and it was much harder to see Him.  Those times occurred in the midst of spiritual plenty and productivity, but this one was in a time of spiritual malaise in me.  I do believe God is using this in triumph over Satan and in mercy for my soul, and maybe Dan and Stacy's, and maybe others.  I do praise His name today!
     Later that day:  a storm with ping pong ball sized hail totalled our car outside the place where we now live.  Massive damage in the rest of the trailer court and much in our own place.  My mind was elsewhere and when I set the coffee on auto that night, I forgot to put coffee in the basket!  Oh, well...
     June 7 was a very tiring day and my BG was 178!  Scary!
     June 10th:  Six years I have been given, so far, since Rol's heart attack!  If ever we need to be praising God, it is today!

So, I am one third of the way through June's Journal and I have left out lots but this is getting too long so I think I will quit and do something else.  What I see, however, is that God is faithful and if I ask, He will be my all in all and will teach me in wonderful ways.  Life is still so "daily" as Gloria Gaither puts it, but it sure is not boring and there is meaning even in this holding pattern that we currently find ourselves in.  The rest of the journal looks interesting but maybe another day...